当每个人出生在贫穷的家，
他们的欲望是有三餐饱饭，
有个地方落角，有家人陪伴，
那他们就满足了。。。

过了一段日，
当你看到别人有的东西，
而你自己没有，
那时你的欲望会告诉你，
无论如何或不折手段都要拥有那些东西。。。
人生就是不断地想要比别人多，别人好。。。

但到老了或到了人生的最后，
你的欲望又会变成当初你生活在贫穷的欲望。。。

人生对我而言只要有安定的家，有家人陪伴就好了。。。

唉~

没有你的时间就像我在一个无人，无生物的世界。。。没有任何声音。。。我不喜欢这种感觉。。。我很想你，很想每分钟没一秒你都在我身边。。。可是，我知道你不可能每一分钟每一秒都在我身边。。。我常常跟自己说没有你的时间很快就过去。。。但是，等待是辛苦，是难受的。。。很到这种让我痛苦万分的感觉。。。可是，我会等的，无论是多久我也会等的。。。在家的时候，我真的觉得很不快乐。。。回到自己家应该是快乐为什么我已回到家的感觉是不快乐呢？为什么我打这封信回心痛，很想哭。。。为什么

我

在家的我，是一个怎样的一个人呢？在家的我好像孤零零一个人...虽然家里有爸妈，弟弟和我，但是我总觉得只有一个人…每天，都是无聊，寂寞地过…我真的不开心…没有心情…不知道要做什么好…只好对着电脑…上网聊天时我唯一打发时间的唯一方法…每天对着电脑，等着她上网…有时候，我真的觉得这世界只有我一人…没人陪我，没人关心我…一句话讲完，在家中不开心多过开心很多很多倍~在学校里，我与他人的沟通能力很差…很多人都说我，不讲话是很串…我很想说我不是串，是害怕跟其他人说话，不敢开口跟他人交谈…

dance club ~

today dun knoe y wan to write blog ~ hehe , mayb sot sot jor ... in holiday de ji xun , i so enjoy lol , hehe ... but hor this time de ji xun got a bit luan lol ... and hor so less ppl cum lol ~ haiz ... make me heart pain ... and i think iszit i do dao not gud or totaly bad ? i so confused ... y i wan so xin ku to do thing about dance club .... y ? i always tell myself if i tui tuan the whole dance club mayb will totaly fall down .... tis thing is i dun wan to c dao de ... in january i plan liao the whole comite member de ... but hor so sad lol , got sum ppl say wan to tui tuan , tis make me totaly heart breake .... at last i let they tui tuan liao ...mayb i do de decision is rite gua .... i let they tui coz any1 can choose their own way to go ... i tell myself they go liao then i mai xin ku a bit lol , do more thing onli mah ...[hehe] i not angry they lol [reli de ] in ji xun i got cry leh ... [haha] sot sot liao ... mayb i think more liao gua ... tat time i reli wan to giv up geh ... but hor got some friends call me to think positif ... i think liao de la now i wan slowly giv a the thing to my junior liao ... tis is the time i relax le ... [wahaha ...hapi ]

thurday ~

today , quite tired coz i in PE period i play basketball , oh man whole team just like i know hw to play only ......... damn .... so tired ~ then in ECA time , i go manage some my club de thing ~ so busy ... then i go to practise my football ... when i practise de time quite gud la ... no many mistake happen on me ... if who c tis blog ... i wanna to say nothing is impossible to us .... and anything is possible when we try it ~ so we gambateh in our life ba ~

Useless of me .........

today i don't know y i will think this , i feel that i am useless people ... i cant do well in my examination , every time i think about my result i start to cry ,sad ,no mood at all ... y i am useless people ... i cant think my future will become what ... my English teacher say my essay is worse ,bad ... when i hear that my heart start to pain , sad ... i also don't know i will become the leader of dance club ... i think i useless , cant do anything ... i ready want to end my life ... in my family i the worst one ... i like only continue wasting money in my life ... i ready don't know what i live for ... who can tell me what should i do ...

Last day of Feb

today quite hapi geh ~ kakaxxx..coz got a thing happen le ....is.......got a female new teacher teacher my class ....haha ... guess hw old r her .....hehe ....is 25 lol .... ben dan haha ....blekkkkkkk.... but hor my mui unhapi and cry today lol .... papa leh ....pa her cry .... today my friends get call to disciplin there hor ... some of my friends de hair get cut haiz ......again .... lucky i no call to discoplin there lol ... hehe 16 of 23 de ppl get call to there leh........ geng leh ...hehe dun talk la .tired arh ..bye bye lur~

My most hapi de day

today reli make me very hapi ... i will remember to day de , coz i biao bai today ...hehe ^.^
today like i reli 'wake up ' le now i am the real chooi mun kit le .... i will reli hardwork on my study and on 1 thing ( secret ) hehe .... i will remember today de ~ ..........................................hapi ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my new life ~

so fast the new year have past 2 week ~ i quite hapi coz i think i already 5 life de hapi ... in tis new year i got 3 more godsister ~ tis reli make me quite hapi ... in 3 of my godsis got 1 was very 'naught' but sumtime quite cute ... sumtime i help her in dance ... i help her not 4 any reward ,i just wanna help her to be better and try to teach her hw to be a adult ... in 3 of my godsis she is the 1 tat i care more than other 2 ~ coz she still like a child , and i mayb next year will left the school , so i hope i can teach her to be a adult ... the 2nd godsis mind quite like adult ,she got her way to think a thing , in 3 of my godsis i reli not scare she will get buli by other ppl ... and the last 1 is can say is my quite importance de ppl , can say no she no today de me ... no she teach me all the things , now i still like a child ... so i got wat things no matter is hapi sad mad or funny i oso will tell her ... and she reli help me a lot a lot ... i reli dun know hw to thx her ... and i wan to thx god tat giv me 3 of tis gud de godsis ... reli thx to god ~ ... hope all my godsis will hapi 4ever la ~ ... ^_^

Sien sien de new year ...

in tis new year arh so sien but dunno y the god so gud giv liao a sho po chat with me if not i will jump hill lol ... choi choi choi ,new year cant say die hehe ..... i and the sho po almost chat everday in new year leh , hehe...^_^ quite hapi ...the sho po reli make me smile a lot in holiday , mayb wil fall in love on her ...hehe we wat oso talk ,feel quite gud .... but in tis holiday i still wan to fan my dance club de thing .... fan ~ ~~~ and 1 thing my my heart will pain ~ wat is love .... i wan love but few time the love also hurt me .... haiz ... i love de is C****** but she sumtime like dun wan choi me ... sumtime wat oso will tell me .... i reli so xing ku .... T.T now i oso hw just 5 5 past wednesday la ... then mayb will not so pain de and i will know wat should i do ...